College is Coming, I don't think I'm ready for it.

So yesterday, I had to rush to get in my college application forms.

Why? Cus my current school didn't really announce crap so we had to find information out the hard way.

You see, form deadlines are on the 10th of August. Basically you have until the 10th to get a test permit so you can take the college entrance exam.

So little miss lazy me was chillin and all, no cares whatsoever.

Then one of my classmates came into the room, out of breath and sweating.

"What happened to you?" I asked so casually as I sat there so nonchalant.

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"Form 2 deadline is today." She answered and slowly but surely I could feel myself start to panic.

Basically, our school told us deadlines would be on the 10th but they never told us it would take a week for the principal to process Form 2 (which is the form you need to pass to get a test permit).

So guess what?

Ya girl ran out of school (not really ran cus my friend drove me but im a dramatic queen so deal.) We went to the nearest computer shop, printed the forms and came back to school and passed them.

So no, I don't think I'm in the right mindset for college yet. I'm only 17 years old and I'm terrified. I have to leave home and live in an apartment, that's if I ACTUALLY pass the entrance exams.

What if I don't though? What do I do then?

I'm so scared. I don't really say it out loud, not to my family nor my friends.

But I am.

I don't want to grow up yet. I don't wanna go out into the real world yet.

But it seems like I'm going to soon and I don't know how things will turn out.

We'll see...

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